Coming Back Together ~ The Beginning

I am on a mission.

I have fully accepted this mission and I mean to attain it.

This is way more important than  when me and Hubs mucked out our room. Like 1,000,000 x Infinity more important.

I blogged awhile back about things are what they are but they don't have to be. I've been in prayer and meditation about it. Yes I have. I am almost positive the time is now.

Today while sitting in church and listening to the message on forgiveness I realized I had nearly forgotten about it. About my mission. What I want and need. Not only for me but my for family. Not just my immediate family but the whole family. Too long our family has been apart and dare I say living in the past. Holding onto past hurts and insults (for lack of better wording).

I don't know what I can do about it. All I know is that someone must be the beginning. I know I can do this. Not alone but with God backing me. With prayers and positive thoughts.

It's all powerful stuff. We do not have to be separate. We have chosen to be so because it is easier to not face it and pretend it doesn't exist. To just let the chasm in the family get bigger and bigger. It can end with us. Those that choose to face facts. To see that we are only hurting ourselves. The not knowing each other and the families we've begun. It's like my kids are paying for what happened 32+ years ago.

I happen to be in the middle of both sides of the original catalyst. I get it. I know the pain. But the way it went down does not have to continue through the generations. We cannot hold onto all the pain and hate or it will tear each of apart and drive us crazy.

The past is the past. It is what it is and cannot be changed. It's what we do with it that matters. For too long hate, pain, fear have ruled. Now it is time for love, healing, forgiving, and moving on to begin.

I don't know how. Actually, yes I do. One step. Just taking the first step. It has to begin somewhere. I know my Mom would not want her family to be the way it is now. Old hurts and new ones causing the family to separate and be weakened. I know my Grandma wouldn't want that either. Their lives meant more than that.


I am on a mission.

I have fully accepted this mission and I mean to attain it.

Writer's Workshop ~ 10+ Shows That I Miss

Linking up with Mama Kat's Pretty Much World Famous Writer's Workshop.

This week the prompts are:

1.) A list of 10 old TV shows you’d like to make a comeback.
2.) A post your mom would write if your mom wrote posts.
3.) Do you love it or hate it? An open letter to your child’s latest obsession.
4.) We just celebrated America’s Independence! Write a poem about what freedom means to you.
5.) It’s hot, the kids are home and crazy, our pets are panting, the days are long…share your number one Summer Survival Tip.
6.) Milkshakes, smoothies, margaritas and more…create a video showing how to make your favorite frozen drink.

Now I'm not gonna get fancy or anything. Sorry, I'm just not. I usually frown on remakes. But some of the crap that is on TV these days is just ridiculous. 

So without further ado and in no particular order:

TV Shows I'd Like to See Make A Comeback:

1) Dallas

I remember my Grandma Baker watching this show. Generally she fell asleep and if you tried to change the channel or turn off the TV she'd say she was just resting her eyes. Anyways, I'm pretty sure that those "Real" Housewives shows got their ides from this show. I mean, really. Think about it.

2) He Man/She - Ra

Say what you will but these were good kids cartoon. It even highlighted morals of all things. Morals = Something a lot of kids today are sorely lacking in. Thank God for Netflix streaming cause you can watch it there. My kids, love them.

3) Popples/Wuzzles

I just remember these cartoons as being fun. So many cartoons these days are just stupid and pointless. Not to mention a lot are inappropriate for the target audience.

4) Saved By The Bell

Fun! Had a little of everything. The hot guys didn't hurt this show either. Later version of this show (College Years, ok(ish). They even had TV movie specials, if I remember right.

5) Full House or most any TGIF shows

Not many truly family shows. Especially in prime time.

6) Green Acres

I used to watch this with my daddy and I loved it. It's a good clean fun, and funny show.

7) All in the Family/Get Smart

Maybe not a family show but I watched it w/my daddy and I turned out ok. Plus, it was just plain funny. Like any other show it had it's episodes that weren't so funny. But still, all in all, a real good show.

If All in the Family wasn't your cup of tea hopefully Get Smart was. Just stupid funny really, but still funny. Watched this one with my daddy, too.

8) I Love Lucy

Does this one need any splainations, I mean explanations? Funny, classy, and family friendly.

9) Out of This World

I loved this show. I mean, who doesn't want magical powers? 

10) Charles in Charge

*sigh* This was the show I almost never ever missed. Of course, maybe the only reason I watched was for Scott Baio but still...

***BONUS***

Touch By An Angel or Little House On The Prairie

Maybe Touched By An Angel was not for everyone but I surely liked it. Plus,  both sent a good message. 

There ya have it. My Top Ten with a couple bonuses. If you don't know or recall some of these shows I suggest you look them up. (Maybe with google)

What shows do you wish would come back?

For Grandma B

Please excuse if this comes out in a raw rambling mess.

I was so sad to hear that you had passed. You were loved and you will be missed. I know that you surely must be with the Lord looking down and watching over us. There are many happy memories we can all share. Those are the memories that stick. The rest, while not forgotten, won't shine as bright as the loving memories I have.

I started immediately thinking about all the wasted years.The circumstances that caused us to be apart. No one person shares the blame. For there's surely enough to go around. The blame game is not a road that anyone should travel. I know, I've been a traveler of that road. Instead, I will hold to those memories that are emblazoned on my brain. The many happy, crazy, bustling of family at get togethers for this reason or that.

Memories Like:

The summer we spent a few weeks or so together traveling, seeing the sights.

At your lake house playing cards. Learning how to clean a fish we caught. (It's amazing I still eat fish.
Especially since it was you I was with that time I got a hook in my hand.).

Your dog, Shotsie (probably misspelled that) and being chased around the house when I wore colored socks.

Helping to walk the dogs and talking nonsense or not, on that afore mentioned summer.

The way if one of us cousins messed up, you called us all. Just to be sure you got the right one.

Those are just a sampling of memories I recall.

Even though it may seem as if I had completely forgotten you and written you off, I never completely did. You see, you were never far from my thoughts. You were in my prayers daily. If I could take back al the time wasted, I would. It's no excuse, the fact that I shut lots of people who loved me out because I had not the effort to put forth at the time. While few may understand this and even fewer forgive this, it was a necessary evil for me to shut down. I'm sorry. I may forever regret that. Right now, that is the rawest emotion I feel at your loss. I know that soon, that will be replaced by the loving memories.

Surely from your perch high in the heavens you can now see how it all played out. Know that you were never far from my heart. I am sorry that we never truly got to be together. That you missed out on my 3 wonderful children, your great grand children. That I missed out on seeing your joy with them. They all have a little piece of each family member who created me in them, I'm sure of it. Some traits, well some may be more apparent than others. I know that all that made me is in them. A part of them.

I look at my wedding ring. Not the one my husband put on my finger but the one my Daddy gave to my Mom. My Mom, your daughter. I remember clearly the day Daddy gave it to me. It fit like it was always meant for me. The ring is a shining example of family connections. A reminder that though we may be far a part, we are still connected. That family bonds are always strong. Even if we don't always realize this to be true.

May your memory and our love forever shine bright!